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unique

2010-01-03T03:50:00.000-08:00

Even though in life there’s many imperfections that we might be unhappy or, embarrassed of.

But those littlest imperfections are the factors that makes us who we are, unique individuals with different personalities.

If everyone was perfect, everyone would probably be the same, uniform.

And that, is not unique, not us. I would rather be the imperfect one.

Because our imperfections make us who we are, and I hope I remember to tell myself this when I am feeling down.

countdown

2010-01-02T15:52:00.001-08:00

Some of the pictures taken at the countdown in the Vivocity.

It was so cramped and packed with people. Even though the ticket was 30 dollars per person.

overnight

2009-12-31T05:15:00.000-08:00

Took quite a lot of pictures and video.

As we are celebrating Hwee Teng's Birthday today.

We were watching movie and eating at the same time.

So bloated but the food was delicious.

As they were being prepared by Zi Xiang's mother. But cooked by Hui Ying's grandmother.

Thanks to both of them. The party went well and fun at the same time.

I even stayed overnight with Zi Xiang in Hui Ying's house.

Went to the 14th floor to see the fireworks late at night.

It was really very nice, but didnt manage to take any pictures of it.

The fireworks lasted for almost 45 minutes.

And i am happy that i didnt go Causeway to count down. Cause i heard from Hui Ying's elder sister that there was no fireworks at all.

This is actually the second time i am staying overnight outside without my parents.

changing

2009-12-30T03:39:00.000-08:00

Went out with Zi Xiang and Wan Yun today to buy cake for Hwee Teng.

As we will be going to Hui Ying's house tomorrow. Intended to stay overnight at first.

But Hui Ying's mum dont allow us to. So no choice.

We didnt manage to buy the cake. So i am going out later to get them.

Had a lot of fun with them even though it was only the 3 of us.

Going from one place to another. Trying to find topics to talked about.

And everyone is contributing to the topic with their experience.

Its like care and share.

But we will be saying all everything, even if it is embarrassing.

Then all of us, will be laughing about it. And soon forget about it.

Maybe we are just doing very random things. But as long as i am with them, i will always experienced joy and laughter.

So i am very sure there will be a lot of fun tomorrow. And i am looking forward to them.

Everything seems to be going so fast recently.

I am wondering if i have grown to be more matured. Longed to be one for quite a period.

Today, will also be Ben's last day of work. As he will be going to secondary 5.

So school is starting soon, just five more days.

While 2010 is coming, i have a lot of things to learnt and figure.

tiring but fun

2009-12-29T01:14:00.001-08:00

I have just come back from NPCC camp and i am actually very tired.

Cause i didnt manage to sleep at night. But i like this Npcc camp a lot.

It motivates me, and teaches me a lot of things.

I was given a chance to overcome my fear. Even though i was being embarrassed sometimes.

But i learnt somethings from the experience.

Others may laugh at you, because you are make mistakes.

But i feel happy, cause i have learnt from the mistakes i have made.

I have learnt that you should never be afraid of doing something.

So you must always take up the first step to overcome your fear.

If you never try, you will never know if you can do it a not.

Anyway, chat with Hui Ying and Tze Min a lot during the camp.

We talked about relationship, friendship and a lot of others random thing as well.

You may not think it is interesting. But i am glad that i have talked them.

I seems to have grown a little. As in my thoughts.

I have recognised what is wrong in my life and have decided to change it.

So that those around me will be much happier.

I LOVE NPCC !

its so much fun

2009-12-27T01:23:00.000-08:00

Went out with Zi Xiang, Wan Yun and Hui Ying today after the ceremony.

Chat a lot.

From the trip i went to Malaysia until Thailand.

Followed by history of other countries and etc.

They are the friends i always spend time and learn a lot of things from.

Because i am the one with the least knowledge in there.

They always keep me update in a lot of things.

From the bands in Korea, to the boys and politics in the country.

Today, we even went a step further.

But i shall not elaborate further. Cause its simply embarrassing just thinking and saying it out.

We were laughing and laughing as if it was a big joke.

But we were actually talking about knowledge. The way they said things to me, make me feel like a little sister. Despite the fact, that i am tall.

I am the youngest among them.

I saw a lot of things from the way they talk.

What i actually meant was the perspective of different views.

I just think in the box, but too them, they think out of the box.

So what can i actually say, they are cool.

I love hanging out with them.

I have seems to be less bothered about the fact i have been hurt before.

Because i know i will have to let it go, in order to be best friends with her again.

But after today, i know she will be my best friends again.

She is just great.

Not only is she, all the others were simply just so great after all.

They will be my best friends forever.

I love them.

Its fun when i am with them.

Despite we are just hanging around in all the common place, which you may think its boring.

I am still feeling envious.

But why?

envious versus jealousy

2009-12-26T05:07:00.000-08:00

I feel envious of others. Which makes me even more upset that i cant have it like they do.

I feel so pathetic of myself. Why am i so weak?

Why do i have to care about what others have so much?

I just want it so badly. But why cant i have it?

There are so many questions without answers.

Why do others get it, while i dont. I also want it. But i cant have it.

Why is it so?

Everyone is so blissful. But i feel that i am not.

I hope that once i have type all this out. I will completely sort out my thinkings.

I have tried my best to get it. But i still dont get it.

While the others just get it so easily.

Maybe there is something really wrong with me. Just that i dont realise it.

I dont want to be so weak anymore. I dont want....

I am just so weak. I am going to be strong.

I feel so pitiful. The pain of not being strong.

Every steps i move, makes me feel so wrong.

I think i have gone on the wrong direction. My thinkings are simply so wrong as well.

I should be happy for the others.

I am supposed to be happy for them for getting it even though i dont.

I think i have been blinded by only my own sufferings.

There are others who suffer more than i do. But they are strong.

Facing every obstacles they had.

I want to be just like them. And i know i have to.

I cant be selfish. And i am not selfish.

christmas greetings

2009-12-25T21:14:00.001-08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE !!

I have always like the Christmas ever since i was young.

Hope to be able to celebrate white Christmas.

But it was impossible in Singapore.

The pictures taken in Malaysia.

the trip to malaysia

2009-12-25T06:39:00.000-08:00

I just got back from Malaysia, early in the morning at 4 plus.

And it was already Christmas.

Sang Christmas songs on the bus ride home from Malaysia.

We were all so crazy and hyper.

Didnt manage to get a lot of things while in Malaysia. But it was fine.

I managed to sort out quite a lot of thinkings. I have been thinking and thinking a lot while i am in Malaysia.

Got some souvenirs for some friends. And some shirts and bag.

Went Genting first for 2 1/2 days and 2 nights. Followed by the Kuala Lumpur trip for 2 1/2 days and 2 nights.

Took a lot of pictures. But didnt get to play a lot while in Genting.

Only went for the indoor theme park, which was kind of boring.

It was really very cold in Genting. I can even touch the clouds.

My teeth was chattering even in the hotel room. I switched off the fans and air-cons. But it was still so cold.

After that we took cable car down to Kuala Lumpur.

So thrilling and scared.

The cable car was swaying from side to side.

Went Kuala Lumpur to look for my cousins. But cant contact them at all until the very last day when we are supposed to go back to Singapore.

There are lots more pictures that i will post over the days.

the christmas celebration

2009-12-19T10:58:00.001-08:00

Went to my grandparents' house today to celebrate Christmas, it was brought forward.

As i wont be back until Christmas. So i received lots of presents from my aunt.

And exchange a few presents.

Had lots of fun just playing with my cousins.

I am the oldest there. Therefore, its sometimes hard to communicate with my younger cousins.

But my cousins were all so friendly towards me. They invited me to join in their board games, such as Monopoly, The Risk and lots more other.

I have never ever played some of those games before. So i dont know how to play some of them.

But my cousins were so patiently, teaching me.

Sometimes i am wondering if i am missing my childhood.

I am happy to grow up, but i am also sad to grow up.

Because i feel that i have missed out on a lot of things.

I dont know if i want to go back to the past, if time can rewind. But i know its impossible.

So i am trying to live my everyday to the fullest. Then i will never regret whenever i think about the past.

I am happy to be who i am today. Though i am lousy.

the log cake we ate..

nice ?

cute ?

my cousins !

most of the pictures was taken by youngest cousin

super best friend i want to cherish

2009-12-17T03:36:00.000-08:00

In the beginning when i have met them, i was actually quite sad and worried.

Cause i was scared that i will be alone as i dont really know how to get along with them.

But eventually i became so hyper because of them.

They are my super best friends. They care about me almost for the whole train trip to Sentosa.

Which makes me feel so precious, and not wanting to be upset so that everyone will have lots of

fun.

And lastly, I dont want to ruin the trip at all.

When we have reached Sentosa.

Sonia and Hwee Teng teach all the rest of us how to play volleyball.

I am a beginner. So i was bruise all over my hands.

It was pain. But i continued.

Until something hilarious happened to us.

There were some students playing amazing race there.

They said they wanted to take pictures with us.

We were all so embarrassed except for Hwee Teng and Sonia.

But eventually took photographs with them.

They asked us to show our belly button when taking photograph.

And i back out immediately.

But eventually they said it was fine if we dont.

We continued to play volley ball until it started raining.

So we hide at a nearby shelter and eat the tidbits we bought earlier.

While eating we were also playing poka cards.

Wan Yun, Sonia and me were teaching the rest of them how to play a game.

But we were actually the one playing among ourselves.

After that, we continued to play volley ball.

My hand was really so pain, i can no longer stand it.

I stopped and went to take photographs of them.

But they joined me shortly.

So we went to build shoes with the sand, while Zi Xiang and Wan Yun went to the sea shore.

They joined us shortly.

And i went alone to the sea side to take photographs. But they joined me again shortly.

I suggested we take photographs.

But they say it would be better if we do a jump shot. So we did.

But we took quite a few shots.

Most of them was me jumping only. I also dont know why.

Then i suggest i take for them.

And it was a success after the 2nd time.

I laugh and laugh whenever i saw the pictures.

I knew from this outing, they are the super best friends i want to cherish every moments with.

Without them, i feel that my life would be quite boring.

But they are the ones who brought laughter into my world.

They care for me. They think of me.

They will never let me be all alone.

Even though they are my friends they can choose not to bother about me.

But they didnt.

Instead they keep looking for me, when i went away.

I seem to be their younger sister whenever i am with them.

Even though i was quite tall.

I am so happy now.

I really am.

I know i am actually smiling when posting all the pictures in here.

EXHAUSTED !

CRAZY :)

YA MEI DRAWN THIS !

SO CALM...

YA MEI'S SHOES !

HWEE TENG'S SHOES !

different views

2009-12-16T01:56:00.000-08:00

Somehow i find it so hard to communicate with your recently.

Your have changed completely into someone i dont know.

And i am simply too scared being near your now.

I know the reason why. But i cant tell you.

Thats because i already know how you would react to it. It no longer feels the same.

Never have a lot of chance to confine into you at all.

Thats the feeling my parents gave me recently.

Sometimes people say things out of anger. And those words that were being said may be very hurtful.

But you should know that they dont mean it. Deep in their heart, they do care for you.

If they dont care, they wouldn't have been bother saying it out. Yet how can you be so heartless to her.

They are someone who have allow you to be born into this world. You should know that without them, you wont be even here.

They can allow you to be an orphan, but they choose not to. Thats because they love you.

Even though their words are harsh sometimes, but all of it were to help you.

They may be lousy in expressing their love for you, but do remember that you also did have happy memories with them.

You may not remember them when you are so sad or angry, but only when you calm yourself down, then you will realised that they cherished you.

They was just angry to know that you have been going home so late recently, and spending so much time outside.

They are angry because they are scared that you will turn bad. Because they care, thats why they are angry and upset.

Sometimes we will only learn to cherish the person after we lose them, but wouldnt it be better if we cherish them when they are still around with us so that we wont regret later.

Regretting something after you lose it, will only make you double the hurt.

But i manage to think positively somehow.

I hope that i will always remind myself of this when i am so sad and angry with them.

had lots of fun with them

2009-12-15T04:48:00.000-08:00

Went out with Si Ying and Hui Yi today. At first wanted to go and look for Yee Ling at Jurong.

But somehow decided to go orchard and somerset.

Then some unbelievable things happened. We was actually on the same train with Ben.

Even though we didnt planned to meet at all.

So we went to somerset first so that i can see Ben when we aboard from the train.

We went to the new shopping centre in somerset called the somerset 313.

And went to HMV, so that i can see Ben. But too bad, i dint manage to see him.

We also went for the outdoor escalator, which was 11th story high.

It was so exciting, but at the same time scary.

We were shopping at a stationary shop and Hui Yi saw a lot of things she liked. But all of them were so expensive.

So Si Ying suggested for us to go to the popular book feast. And there we went.

We went into the book feast for 2 hours, just buying some pens and erasers.

After that we have our lunch at a book food court, which was very special and unique.

I thought food court was just plain with air conditioned.

But i was wrong when i saw the food court. It was so nicely decorated.

But anyway, we went looking around for drinks. And managed to find each-a-cup. Which was quite far.

We walked from one tower to another and was at the fountain of wealth.

But my camera was at low battery. So didnt take a picture of it.

After we bought our drinks we took train and went back to Woodlands.

We were chit-chatting for so long that the train ride passed so quickly.

Decided to take neo-prints after that.

It was so funny when we were decorating the neo-prints.

Hui Yi, make fun of Si Ying and me. Then Si Ying and me took revenge.

But at the last second. Something very funny happened.

Hui Yi put a big big flower on Si Ying's head. But wanted to erase and put a smaller one.

But it was too late.

We were laughing whenever we saw the neo-prints.

CAN YOU FIND SI YING & HUI YI?

FOOD COURT

NICE ?

RANDOM

GINGER BREAD MAN !

GINGER BREAD HOUSE !

SO SPECIAL ....

GUESS WHAT IS THIS ?

THE UNIQUE ONE !

chances are not here yet

2009-12-14T19:09:00.001-08:00

I really want to go on to the SINGAPORE FLYER, have never ever try it before.

I believe that it will be very fun, cause you will be able to feel the clouds all around you.

Kind of excited and scared just thinking about it.

Because i have a fear for heights actually, so i need someone to accompany me for this.

But too bad, there will not be any chance this year.

All the rest of the days this year are so fully packed.

I will be going to SENTOSA with my primary school best friends this thursday.

Followed by, celebrating CHRISTMAS with my relatives and family this saturday.

And i will be off, going to MALAYSIA from 20th to 24th.

Followed by a 2 day 1 night camp for NPCC on the 28th and 29th.

I am too busy, but will still take out some time for friends and Ben after coming back from malaysia.

So do ask me to go out for outings.

pictures credit to http://www.thylove-d.blogspot.com/

life

2009-11-22T16:35:00.000-08:00

Everything seems to come and go. Just like the people in our life.

They created the memories in our life and then just walk out of our life, leaving all the memories with us.

But what can we actually do about all this people?

There is one thing for sure.

You can learn how to cherish them when they are in your life.

So that you will not regret after they walked out of your life.

As days goes by, it means that times goes by as well.

The times goes by making us grow older day by day. And eventually one day we will die.

So make use of the time you have now. For you dont know, when your time is up.

Live everyday to the fullest with no regrets.

As you may not have the time to make up for the loss in the future.

We make comments about the others.

But do we realise that sometimes we hurt others with our words.

I have learnt to forgive and forget about the past and continue to move on towards the future.

changes

2009-11-20T05:22:00.000-08:00

People changes in appearance and attitude without even noticing it.

Everything will change as the time and days goes by, but whether you change into a better or worse person. It lies in your own hands.

You are the one who choose who you really want to be and not the others.

But i do realise that those around me have certainly changed a lot.

Maybe i did as well. Or i really did change.

But for the better or worse. I cant seems to differentiate.

sad misunderstanding

2009-11-18T01:14:00.000-08:00

Auntie, i dont want to hate you, but you are forcing me to do so.

I have tried my best to do everything properly and i have never got any praises from you.

Instead a lot of reprimanding and scoldings.

I am struggling to hold on to everything.

My life, my emotions, my work, my friends, my family, my relationship.

But no matter what, i have always never want to break down or fall sick.

I have never wanted......

But i actually did fall sick today, which was completely not my fault.

You scolded me for having a terrible headache.

Despite I was suffering.

Not only were you the one who were stressed.

I tried to be there whenever i could.

And this time, i was really trembling very terribly.

Not only did you didnt care about me but you scolded me and hurt me with your words.

Are you inhuman?

I dont know.

Anyway, i do know that i have tried to refrain from talking to the others or using handphone during working.

I really tried......

But you are not being the least bit of happy at all.

I dont need you to be grateful but at least know that i did do it.

And stop saying that i am treating this work as a game.

I am not, seriously.

Because i know i have came out to suffer and i have been prepared.

Maybe not really very prepared.

But i know working is hard.

I have a few other jobs before this job as well.

And i know its not easy working.

But i have never wanted to give up.

I wanted to earn money for a lot of reasons.

You may think they are nothing.

But i want to earn money.

I respect you for you are the leader of the group.

Without you, a lot of others may not know what to do.

But if you continue on to be so rude.

Scolding others because they are not feeling well.

I seriously think you have to step down.

We are being employed to work for the company and not for you.

We are here as a employee and not a slave worker.

You yourself fall sick too but no one ever commented on you.

So why do you have to comment on others when they are sick.

If you are unhappy with me for not working.

Then just keep it to yourself or just sack me.

Since you hold such a big position in the company.

Why want me this small and lousy employee.

Isnt it right?

Think before you even say anything again.

I wont hate you.

But i want to knock some sense in you.

I am not a superwoman or wonder woman.

Instead i am just a normal human being like you coming out to work to earn money.

So give me the respect because i know i deserve it.

I do not have to be look down by you, seriously.

girls versus boys

2009-11-11T03:06:00.000-08:00

I went to work today and i have simply regretted it a lot.

Its not that i dont want to earn money but its because i simply cant stand the hardship.

Because of this work, i was so upset that i was not a guy.

As the guys got to do a easier job than the girls.

Even though it is boring.

2E3 class chalet

2009-11-09T02:33:00.000-08:00

Went for the class chalet yesterday and stay overnight until today.

I lied in order to be able to stay overnight.

And that yesterday was also the first time i have ever stay outside without my parents.

It was actually quite fun, but there were also a lot of quarrels as well.

During this class chalet, I have changed my views on quite a lot of people.

Some of them was from good to bad, while some of them was from bad to good.

And obviously there was also views on people from bad to worse.

I have been hurt by some of them as well.

Those that i have always trusted seem to have changed into another person in the class chalet.

I feel that i have been backstabbed after all.

Because they have betrayed the trust that i have for them.

I thought they were so good, seriously.

But after what happened, i have also seriously changed my view on them.

Its not that i am being petty or what.

But it no longer feel the same talking to them, as well as seeing them.

I did not know how to face them at all, thats why i have tried to avoid them.

But i may not be able to avoid them always.

So i will try to forget everything, but 1 think is for sure. We will never be able to like before.

Anyway, i have took a lot of photographs with my classmates, friends as well as best friends.

So i dont regret going for this class chalet after all.

feelings to ben

2009-10-10T05:11:00.000-07:00

I look around me and felt that something was missing.
I am the one you promised you would love, but you seem so far away now.
I see you, but i dont feel you.
I cant seem to get your attention, because you didnt seem to look at me anymore.
Recently i feel that you are someone else, who i dont know and understand.
But while i am still holding on to this relationship, i hope you would turn back and look at me again before its too late.
So dont let me down.

Happy birthday mummy

2009-10-06T04:33:00.000-07:00

Its mummy's birthday today.

So i am here to post and say that i love you mum.

Even though you have scolded me sometimes, but i knew you meant well.

You care for me though your way of expressing it is bad.

And because of it, it sometimes lead to misunderstanding between us.

You cheer me up with your encouraging words when i was feeling down.

And you also lend a listening ear to hear all my trouble.

I have always make fun of you but you do not get angry with me.

Even though you have to embarrassed yourself, but you still told me about all the things that happened in your life so that i am able to learn from your mistakes.

And i really admire you for your courage.

Since young, you have always been worrying about me no matter what.

Even until now, you are doing the same thing as well.

But i am not those type that will express my feeling by talking.

So even until now, i have never really said thank you for being my mum.

And i just want to say that you have been a great mum.

Happpy Birthday to you.

Ben's aunt house

2009-07-11T21:54:00.000-07:00

Today, i went out with Ben today to Compass point. At first, we wanted to go and study in the library.

But we ended up going to his aunt's house. I was quite scared in the beggining.

But as time goes by, i got used to it.

His cousins were all so friendly to me. Even though they didnt knew me in the first place.

They even told me a lot about Ben's past, which i dont know.

Ben was so cute when he was young. And he was definitely a playful boy who always got others into trouble, even when his aunt is marrying.

And his cousins also give me sweets to eat, which was a dollar note.

It was a very interesting stuff but it tasted really weird, just like a piece of paper.

Ben was so embarrassed, but he was really happy.

At the end, i felt that i understand Ben more, which was a good thing.

I love his cousins a lot, just like how i love my cousins too.

RANDOM

2009-07-05T06:12:00.000-07:00

Take the Magic: The Gathering 'What Color Are You?' Quiz.

death of michael jackson

2009-07-03T18:56:00.000-07:00

There are always things that happen unexpectedly.

And the recent one is the death of Michael Jackson, who died due to a sudden heart attack.

Which was a pity. He was considered quite young, and was very famous.

So therefore, i would like to say don't take things for granted when you are still alive, because once you die you can't change anything anymore.

And its already far too late to regret.

flag day

2009-06-27T21:43:00.000-07:00

Today went to do Flag Day for SANA with Hui Ying and Wan Yun.

Then Zi Xiang came to donate at the same time do her project.
We started from 11 plus to 3 plus nearly 4. And I feel that I am totally a failure.
Because I was trying so hard to smile to everyone asking them to make a donation.
But not a lot of people did. Instead when Ben came, the donation was done very quickly.
He approached everyone and almost everyone donated.
So I was so jealous. But at least he helped me to complete it. And I am grateful to him.
But Wan Yun and Hui Ying is much more persevere than me.
They continued to ask everyone to make a donation when I was actually taking a break.
And then we saw Hwee Teng and Ya Mei together. They donated and went for shopping.
So when we ended everything, we went to eat. And Hwee Teng and Ya Mei came.
We chat, and after a while Hwee Teng left saying that she is meeting another friend to shop in Bugis.
So we were taking turns to buy food so that we are able to stay seated in MacDonald.
But Ya Mei said her phone was hanged and we can’t take the batteries out.
So Ben accompanied Ya Mei to the NOKIA shop.
While I chat with Hui Ying and Wan Yun.
I didn't follow Ben and Ya Mei because I was far too tired.
I was standing under the hot sun for hours and I got sunburn.
And I feel like I am going to die because I am really tired.
But I had a lot of fun today, chatting with my best friends and boyfriend.
And I have also gained a lot of experience.

movie outing

2009-06-25T03:18:00.000-07:00

Today, I went to Causeway and watch movie with my darlings.

We were watching thread of destiny. Before going in to the cinema theatre, we bought ice jelly, bread, potato chips, twisties, mango smoothie, chocolate fudge and chocolate Swiss roll.
Zi Xiang and Wan Yun both sat in the middle, whereas Hui Ying seat beside Wan Yun and I sat beside Zi Xiang.
Seating beside me was another guy and Hui Ying was seating with another girl.
She said she want to change seat with me, because she want to be one step closer to the guy beside me. But the guy already had a girlfriend.
The movie was not really nice to me, because I don't really understand the story, even though I have been crying non-stop.
I cried when: the main actress was beaten by her boyfriend, the main actor left the main actress,
the main actress was being hated by her friends, the main actor and main actress can't be together when they are in love.
The movie looks really incomplete to me, because there is a lot of confusion, a sudden ending, and no proper subtitle.
The subtitle was in Malay, Chinese, Korean language.
But I regret not watching sky of love, because Zi Xiang, Hui Ying and Wan Yun were so engross talking about it.
Anyway, I had a lot of fun today with them.
And they recommended me to watch a lot of dramas.
I wish that we will still hang out so much no matter how old we are.
They are my BEST FRIENDS FOREVER AND EVER.

quiz

2009-06-24T03:45:00.000-07:00

All of the 14 people must do this quiz, unless he or she does not have a blog or he or she has done it before.

Write the names of 14 people you can think off, then answer the questions.

1. Faarihah

2. Zi Xiang

3. Sophia

4. Tian Tian

5. Laura

6. Jacelyn

7. Yee Ling

8. Hwee Teng

9. Kartini

10. Hui Yi

11. Rauzaanah

12. Rasyiqah

13. Masturah

14. Syazwani

01. How did you get to meet 7? (Yee Ling)

We are in the same class in 1E3.

02. What would you do if you and 13 never met? (Masturah)

I would have lost one cheerful and Hannah Montana lover as a friend.

03. What would you do if 1 and 12 date? (Faarihah & Rasyiqah)

I don't think they even know each other in the first place.

04. Have you ever seen 14 cry? (Syazwani)

Maybe, because I saw her watery eyes.

05. Would 4 and 11 be a good couple? (Tian Tian & Rauzaanah)

I don't think they are lesbians. But I believe that they will be good friends.

06. Do you think 11 is attractive? (Rauzaanah)

Of course, she is my heart-heart. And we are attached.

07. What's 2's favourite colour? (Zi Xiang)

I am not really sure, but I think its blue.

08. When was the last time you talked to 9? ( Kartini)

The friday of the first week of the June holidays.

09. What language does 8 speak? (Hwee Teng)

Chinese & English.

10. Who is 13 going out with? (Masturah)

Nobody, I think.

11. What grade is 12 in? (Rasyiqah)

Secondary 2, we are in the same level.

12. Would you ever date with 10? (Hui Yi)

Maybe, if she wants. But she have Si Ying already.

13. Where does 5 live? (Laura)

Somewhere in Admiralty.

14. What's the best thing about 3? (Sophia)

At least she still remember me after no contact for one year.

15. What would you want to tell 10 now? (Hui Yi)

You are funny and pretty.

16. Whats the best thing about 8? (Hwee Teng)

She is pretty, out-going, intelligent and very popular.

17. Have you ever kissed 5? (Laura)

No.

18. What was the best memory you have with 7? (Yee Ling)

We went to Lot 1 together to shop and also chat almost everyday.

19. When's the last time you're going to see 6? (Jacelyn)

I am not sure.

20. How is 14 and 12 different? (Syazwani & Rasyiqah)

Syazwani is smaller than Rasyiqah.

21. Is 5 pretty? (Laura)

Of course, she is my dear.

22. How did you meet 5? (Laura)

We are in the same class in 1E3 last year.

23. Is 1 your best friend? (Faarihah)

Yes, she is my goodie.

24. Do you hate 12? (Rasyiqah)

Absolutely no.

25. Have you seen 4 in the last month? (Tian Tian)

Of course, we were in school every weekdays last month.

26. When was the last thing you said to 3? (Sophia)

Today, when i tag her blog

27. Have you been to 5's house? (Laura)

I never did, but i hope i would go next time.

28. When's the next time you're gonna see 10? (Hui Yi)

Maybe when school re-open

29. Are you close to 13? (Masturah)

We are friends, therefore we talk sometimes

30. Have you ever been to a movie with 4 before? (Tian Tian)

Never and I am not sure if there will be any chance.

31. Have you ever gotten into trouble with 8? (Hwee Teng)

Never.

32. Would you give 2 a hug? (Zi Xiang)

Of course, she is one of my darlings.

33. When have you lied to 3? (Sophia)

I didn't, because it's a long time since we last chat.

34. Is 1 good with socializing? (Faarihah)

Yes, she has lots of friends.

35. Do you know secrets about 9? (Kartini)

I don't think so. She always tell her secrets to Jacelyn or Rauzaanah.

36. Describe the relationship between 12 and 14. (Syazwani & Rasyiqah)

I don't think they even know each other in the first place.

37. Best thing about your friendship with 9? (Kartini)

She is my ma-ma.

38. What's the worst thing about 6? (Jacelyn)

Nothing, she is one of my besties.

39. Have you ever had a crush on 12? (Rasyiqah )

Nope.

40. Does 14 has a girlfriend or boyfriend? (Syazwani)

I don't think so.

41. Have you ever wanted to punch 1's face? (Faarihah)

Never, she is my goodie and i love her a lot.

42. Has 2 met your mother? (Zi Xiang)

Of course, we have been best friends for about 4 years and she came to my house recently too.

43. How did you get to meet 3? (Sophia)

When i was in 5G in woodgrove primary school. We were in the same class.

44. Did you ever physically hurt 3? (Sophia)

I don't think so.

45. Do you live close to 7? (Yee Ling)

Yes, just one bus-stop away.

46. What's 8's favourite food? (Hwee Teng)

I am not sure, because there is a lot.

47. What kind of car does 1 has? (Faarihah)

Only toy cars.

48. Have you travelled anywhere with 9 before? (Kartini)

Yes, last year when Jacelyn, Rauzaanah, Charmaine and a few others went shopping together.

49. If you give 14 $100 , what will he/she spend it on? (Syazwani)

Her own things.

dad

2009-06-21T05:16:00.000-07:00

To my dearest dad:

Sorry for always disappointing you.

You should know that you are the best dad in my mind.
I have always done things to anger or upset you.
And i have always do things that you don't like too.
I am really very sorry.
But thank you for forgiving me every time,
and don't put me in a difficult situation.
I love you for being so caring and understanding towards me.
You know I always go out with my friends
with my funds low.
And therefore you sometimes give me extra money to spend.
You have always motivated and encouraged me with your words,
in order for me to grow up and be stronger.
You wanted me to look forward and be positive,
but I never did.
Sometimes you even help me when I was quarreling with my mum,
even though I was in the wrong.
Though our family may not be rich,
but you always tried to make me a princess.
With the things you have done for me.
Even though you cant get everything I have wanted,
but I am blessed to have a father like you.
So i want you to be happy always,
and live a healthier life.
So that i would never have to lose you.
I am afraid of losing you,
I need you to be in the perfect condition
in order for me to take care of you,
when I grow up.
I know i am always the small girl to you,
which will never grow up.
But I want to wish you a Happy Father's Day
and I would always love you,
no matter what happens.

celebration for father's day

2009-06-20T17:43:00.000-07:00

I went to my grandparents' house with my parents and brother to celebrate Father's Day in advance.

And saw a lot of my cousins.
I thought that since I was the only teenager, and all my other cousins were either younger than me by at least 2 or older than me by about 9.
I feel that I have nobody in common to talk about teenage stuff.
And I can't seem to join in the children section; neither do I like to join the adult section.
But I would be really bored with nothing to do.
I can't message my friends because my handphone bill had exceeded.
And I can't always be chatting on the phone, or my parents, aunts and uncles would be asking me if I was chatting with my boyfriend.
So I thought I would be very bored.
But in the end, everything turns out better than what I thought.
I was actually enjoying playing with my cousins.
We were making balloon structures.
And they were scaring me with the balloons.
I was extremely scared of the balloon bursting even now.
So they were being very naughty to scare me.
But I know they were just fooling around with me.
I had enjoyed myself a lot.
I love my cousins. Last but not least, I wish my dad, uncles, grandpa a happy father's day in advance.
I hope they will be happy always, and live a healthier life.

missed it

2009-06-18T01:27:00.000-07:00

When I saw this playground, all my childhood memories came into my mind.

It’s been long since I have last play in it.

It has been renovated before because I remembered that it used to have a swing, which I have loved a lot.

But now, there is no swing.

This reminds me of a lot of things.

And that things changes as we grow older.

We can never be who we were once before.

Because we are living in the present and the past was a thing that we were once living in.

Though we look into the past, those are just memories now.

And we can love our memories or hate the memories.

But we can never hate ourselves.

We should love who we are and never hurt ourselves.

Sometimes when we regret do something, we tend to cry.

As we think that cry was a natural thing and it helps us to release our unhappiness.

But we are simply wrong, because cry won’t help to solve anything.

It can't help you turn the time back to leave in the past.

We may say that life was cruel, but life was not the cruel one.

We, humans who didn't make good use of our life, were the cruel one.

Because we were the one who is choosing our own path, so we must not do things to let ourselves regret.

As we are not able to change the past.

Yesterday was a past, today was the present.

What lies in the present, we would never know.

So just be who you want to be now, and don’t let others have a chance to look down on you.

Only when you succeed and shine then everyone will give you their respect.

Because it proves that you are strong.